broken heart

sad is an understatement of the century if i am forced to decribe how i feel right now. i think heart broken is the nearest to what i am going through right now.

i am sad that i am included in the same group as those morons that did not fully support and belittled you from the begining.

i am just very confused with what you said and what you wrote, because its contradicting. i have never stopped or criticised you for expressing yourself. in fact i dare take the credit for unleashing your new outspoken self. before this what did you do? be honest. you cry, keep quiet and after awhile, make as if nothing happen. and after a long while, you even forgave them and be nice back to them. i dont really understand why but i still have very much respect for you because it takes a bigger person to do what you do. but after awhile you bitched that you are being ridiculed and pushed around and you're fed up. so, who told you to stand up for what you believe in and just speak up?

if you conveniently forgotten all those long talks we have, then i have nothing to say.

if you are telling me now that you want to forget what we have been through, then i have nothing to say.

if you are telling me that i too cant express how i feel honestly about you, then i have nothing to say. at least i am honest with you. you prefer me to sweet talk to you but later bad mouth you behind your back like the rest?

i have NEVER shut you out like the rest in your life. i just simply told you i am tired of looking at you contradict everything that you said and later get burned.

thats all.

i still and always will have your pictures in my handphone and ipod.

i have never stopped loving you.

i have never stopped supporting you.

i am even crying as i am typing this now.

i have known you for 26 years! and you have really hit me straight through the heart this time...

but you know what?

call me stupid but i will still be here for you, when you need me, because thats what i vowed to you and i will keep my word.

it pains me that you misunderstood me. but its alright.

i refuse to say good bye. because i will always be here for you.

i wish nothing but the best for you. i only want you to be happy.

you will forever be in my heart...

i love you, always...