Tuesday, October 26, 2010

My Playbook


This is the ultimate gadget that I want!

Its perfect....well, for me it is!

I LOVE it!

I shall have you....soon.

I cant seem to be able to describe you well, therefore i shall let you speak for yourself.

Here is a little teaser of whats great to come!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

its time

i had only 3 hours of sleep!

and i can foresee this will be on a frequent basis as long as my 'dear' boss goes on like this.

i dont think my body can take it. i am not getting any younger, even though my heart is 18, but i dont have the time to give my body a break!

i am........... tired.

i need to have a more stable career that doesnt involve weird extreme working conditions. my body is sreaming for some TLC.

And i am finally listening to it.


even though it wouldnt be easy for me to leave, i know i have to sooner or later. and if i have a very good offer, i better take advantage of it now then later when i might not get offers showered on me. its tough competition out there. but i will toughen up my heart and just jump!

bcoz i am ............ tired. dead tired...

Monday, October 11, 2010



at first there were 4 people in my life that earned that title i gave them. but now theres only 3.

the one that was stripped off the title was the one person i never expected to loose. i dearly cared and loved her so much......

I thought i knew her, and for a long while i really believe i knew her and thought she loved and cared for me too...but i was wrong.

whatever lies she told others that i have witnessed all these years, i thought was only directed at others. but now i began to wonder and...doubt.

i felt she was pretending with me.....and the people she surround herself with....errrgghh! no words to describe them!

Thats it. i cant compromise my principles for such people.

But i know everything happens for a reason. i may not know exactly why that happened to both us, but i am happy now and living my life. i hope she is happy with her life too!

i am truly blessed to have my 3 BFFs! Thank you for being in my life! Love u guys! :D

the unexpected

i dont even know how to begin this topic...

some people say, hey its just a job. but the problem is, for me...a its not.

i love my job!

i love helping people, i love seeing their face lit up when they are healthier and/or wealthier! when u get some stranger hugging you tight, crying and thanking you for helping them get healthy or out of financial dilemma....its a rush! an undescribable feeling! thats what made me love this job!

it helps that my working environment is great too - fun and caring colleagues and cool, undertsanding bosses. Thats why i turned down one or two great offers that was offered to me in the past 2 years. i thought hey, i have finally found my place in this world. somewhere i can grow and be happy fo many years to come.

so i was shocked when my dear young boss said this to me in his email:

"As far as the Company is concerned all marketing should have asked to leave upon 2 years of failure."

"This company has provided much and still continues to provide even more in future. If you feel this way, LEAVE."

i was so crushed! after TWO years of pouring my heart and soul in this job and company! i sacrificed many weekends and family time to achieve the goal! And this is what i get? it all started with a small problem, and he manage to turn it around turn it to this very hurtful emarks. And after only half an hour he comes up to me and be funny and poking at me as if nothing happens. i cant pretend as well as he can. if im hurt, it shows and it will tae time to heal.

i wasnt angry, like i usually would. i was so hurt. everyone that knows me knows how passionate i am about this company and my job. why cant he see that?

Rizal said he was just venting his frustatrations. but why dump it on me? He said to let it go. But i know he knows as he said that to me, its not going to be the same anymore.

I will still respect him as a boss, but that is all. i dont like how i felt that day after reading that dreadful email. and i dont want to go thought that again. it will always be imprinted in my head. now when i see him, all i remember is him saying that i am a failure! And i am so totally not! thats what hurts the most!


i get hurt again. i never learn my lesson! never get too close!

Im sorry H, my wall is up again...and i dont know when/IF it will ever be down for you..

high as a kite!

It was a very nice sunny afternoon and we were all invited to go to Diane's place for lunch because Rizal shamelessly asked for her mum to cook Devil's Curry! So, Rizal, Alyssa and myself went over and stuffed our face with so much of the ever delicious food, until i felt like a snake - crawl up somewhere and sleep!

But my favourite past time broke the spell and im wide awake - MAHJONG. I love playing mahjong! It involves strategy, behavarioul analysis and money - so whats not good about that?! hehehe...

During the many rounds of Mahjong, I finally know where Diane gets her nutty charm - her Mum! Her mum was hillarious! She is so cool and she made us all feel so comfortable and at home.

Diane's family is so super friendly that the women gang up on my dear hubby and made him HIGH! Yes.....HIGH AS A KITE! it was hillarious! He had about 3 glasses and off he flies to Neverland...flying high! So the girls were very much entertained by him! His face all red, grumbling and slurring as well as in the car, and then slept like a baby....all the way home. When he got home, went to toilet and straight went to bed! i had to force him to get up few hours later to ensure he ate something and drink lots of water and supplements! I know if i let him sleep through the night, he is going to regret it in the morning!

That was a very memorable afternoon! And i am sure it wont be our last!

P/S: Alyssa - welcome to the blogging world! you will love it! Now, lets get Diane to blog!! :D

Monday, October 4, 2010


yes yes....i am back from the 'dead'!

it feels like centuries since my last blog. but hey, i didnt have the mood to blog and i dont wanna be 1 of those morons that write just for the sake of writing and end up blogging crap.

well, needless to say A LOT has happened since my last blog! cant recap everything and i dont think i wanna give my brain a cramp by trying. hmm, maybe some other time.

i just wished there is a software/apps that allows me to blog via my BB! then you will see tonnes of blogs from me, because now, i hardly use the laptop.

i guess the main event i am most looking forward to is my Beijing trip! another 40 days to go!

now i just have to get enough money to spend there!