Thursday, June 26, 2008

My Baby gone...

My heart dropped and broke into a gezillion pieces as soon as I realised my 'baby' has left me. There goes my usual hellos and nite nites, or me scolding it for being 'naughty'..

I'd never thought the pain would be this bad. I'd never thought my lil baby had that much of influence in my life, til its gone.

I miss seeing it playing around with its 'sibling'. Taunting it, teasing it.. till there's a mini flood on the floor! I miss screaming at them for causing me to get up from my comfortable position on the couch to go mop the floor.

But now I know you are in a better place. And thats the only thing thats comforting me now.

Your presence will definitely be missed, my beloved baby.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Thorn in my bed of roses...

Its been awhile since I blogged..

A lot happened and happened fast. Mostly good, especially, me finally nailing a good job. Things are finally looking great for me. I can finally breathe easily and smile as I foresee my future.

Just as I was about to enjoy this new outcome in my life, I was hit with a 'road block'.

My 'poison' has returned. I thought it was behind me. I thought I have finally rid of it. But unfortunately, I was mistaken.

I guess it is my fault as well, for not taking better care of myself. Well, I could not afford to in the past. But now I can. And I shall. I will not make this 'poison' effect my good life now.

In fact, I will identify it and kill it. I will overcome this. For I want a healthy and happy life.

Please God, I beg of you to hear my plea and help me. Give me strength to go through this. You are my last resort, where I can pour my heart out and The One that I know that can truly help me.

I am forever grateful for what You have given me. Alhamdulillah...