Extremely Sad

I hate that people always misunderstood me.

Every time I try to help and accomodate, I get hurt and painted as the unreasonable, heartless bitch.

I know your whole story! I am the one that tried to move things around your situation. I even said take time off today and tomorow and try to settle those things as much as you can and see if you can still make it. And worse case scenario, I get another to take your place, even though its not a very good decision. And rearrange all work delegated. So that, nothing is left undone. So that everything is still running smoothly. Thats why I asked you to let ME know. I am the one arranging everything, from the roatrips to the runnings of marketing department. I have thought 10 steps ahead.

But what did you do? You pulled a 'Halim'. And the fact that you cant go on the trip and putting your family first is not the reason why I am extremely pist off and disappointed with you. It is that I know your whole situation and I am the one who is giving you choices and a helping hand and you then you turn around and tell me that BEN gave you a SOLUTION. What the hell did I gave you? I gave you choices. The only difference, big difference is that Ben gave you the solution that YOU WANT. You didnt trust me enough to know how to handle my work.

To make it even more painful, if you cant come to me, why cant you be fucking professional like you claim and go tell your immediate boss - Rizal? On top of that, we know you personally. We know your family situation. You could have used that. I hate the fact you dont trust us to make the right decision and help you.

I think Rizal's right. I expect too much from people. So, dont worry. Its my fault. I expected too much of you. My bet.