Sunday, November 23, 2008

Heaven AND Hell


Im at a stage in my life, when all is well.

I have great career with strong possibilty of a very good financial stability. On top of that, working with great bosses with a great products and cause.

I can see the chain reaction and it looks good. Able to pay off old debts, take care of parents and of course myself. I am able to enjoy more things in life; food, clothes and etc.

I can even see a clear picture of us having a nice comfortable house and a nice car. I can foresee we get to travel together often and go shopping!

For that, I am extremely grateful. Alhamdulillah..


I see HIM less than a week in a month!

I miss his smiles: cheeky, horny, mischevious and most of all warm loving smile that makes you feel like you're the most beautiful woman on earth!

I miss the way he look at me, as if he can see straight to my soul.

I miss him singing to me romantic love songs

I miss him making stupid lame jokes just to cheer me up

I miss his voice - sexy, gruffy at times but most important - soothing.

I miss his touches

I miss his romantic gestures

I miss him hugging me till I fall asleep

I miss him wiping my tears away and comforting me when I am down

I miss him listening to my rantings

I miss listening to him excitedly telling me of his day

I miss debating with him

I miss his craziness and swearing

I miss us bitching and 'kutuk-ing' people

I miss playing with his warm soft fingers

I miss his unique, hipnotising scent

I miss him spoiling me

I miss touching him

I miss the feeling I get when his skin is against mine

I miss touching his face and gazing into his eyes that is so full of love for me

I miss him saying I am 'comel'

I miss his laughter

I miss sleeping with him beside me

I miss being woken up by him, with his soft voice, coaxing me

I miss how you make me feel complete - perfect

I miss my soul.


Thursday, November 20, 2008

Confessions and Pledges

"If I never feel you in my arms again,
if I never feel your tender kiss again,
if I never hear "I love you" now and then,
will I never make love to you once again?
Please understand, if love ends,
then I promise you, I promise you that,
that I shall never breathe again.
Breathe again, breathe again,
that I shall never breathe again.
And I can't stop thinking about,
about the way things used to be,
and I can't stop thinking about,
about the love that you made to me.
And I can't get you out of my head;
how in the world will I begin
to let you walk right out of my life
and throw my heart away?
And I can't stop caring about,
about the apple of my eye,
and I can't stop doing without,
without the center of my life.
And I can't get you out of my head,
and I know I can't pretend
that I won't die if you decide
you won't see me again.
And I can't stop thinking about,
about the way my life would be.
No, I can't stop thinking about,
how could you love me then leave?
And I can't get you out of my mind,
God knows how hard I've tried,
and if you walk right out my life,
God knows I'm sure to die.
And I can't stop doing without,
without the rhythm of my heart.
No, I can't stop doing without,
for I will surely fall apart.
And I can't get you out of my mind,
and I know I can't deny,
and I would die if you decide
you won't see me again"
(Toni Braxton - "Breathe again")

"I'm not your Superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
As a token of love from you to me.
I'll always be there for you
Through good and bad times
But I can't be that Superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my love, oh lasting love

I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you've got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me, yeah
I need love
I need just your love"
(Karen White - "Superwoman")

"Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
'Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.
Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.
I don't really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
(Your love I'll remember forever.)
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
(No, don't walk awya from me. Don't you dare walk away from me.)
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you (you, you, you./If I don't have you, oh, oo.)
You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.
I never knew
Love like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?"
(Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing")


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

8 days = ETERNITY

"I pretended that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still"

("Nobody Knows" - Toni Rich Project)


Friday, November 7, 2008

Strolling Down Memory Lane

I had a great time tonight!

I never knew how much I miss them untill I hung out with them. Oh, you guys crack me up!

I will always treasure your friendship, because good friends are hard to find.

I do hope we stay friends for a very long time.

Dedicate to: YY, Mei Lyn & Yoga. Not forgetting Karen...who cant join us tonight.

Love you guys!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Strong Beginings, Promising Near Future.

Unexpected responses.

Overwhelming reactions.

Highly motivated.

These phrases best describes the situation we get from leaders.

Its great, yet bloody scary at the same time! All of this happened in such a short time. And knowing these leaders, they will move fast and strong. There are demands not only from east Malaysia, but international as well.

Will we get to fully support them?

This is a fuckin good headache!

This must be addressed fast, without compromising quality and standards. But I know, with this dynamic team, we will be able to rise to the occasion.

Especially with the Formidable Four! No other top management of a company do what they do. And for that, I am damn proud to be in this company. And I am damn confident with the powerful combination of the 'Masters' (top management) plus professional and efficient 'Soldiers' (support staff), we will be feared and respected by others.

I can foresee a hectic yet very fruitful future, very near future.

May God always bless and protect us towards our path to success!