sayonara 2009.... ola 2010!

2009

its been a great year for me.

yes i have my down moments, but i think i have more good times than bad.

i am truly blessed.

i am growing even more stronger in self confidence. i am more and more comfortable in my own skin.

i have learned not to conform to what others expect of me or expect me to become.

i have learned to be more patient and tolerant.

i have learned not to have too much expectations of others.

i have confessed 1 thing that i have kept to myself for far too long, to the one and only person i trust with my deepest darkest secret - my hubby, and it felt great! all the while i thought he would despise me for it, ended up with him being supportive and quite relief? go figure!

i even have people accusing me of being snobbish because i dont mingle or attend their functions as often as they would like. excuse me for having a career and life outside that circle. i will never apologise for living my life to how i want to.

when i first heard this, i smiled and laughed. usually this is not how i would react to this kind of news. but i did. i laughed because it sounded so ridiculous! and i was sad that they think that way. how narrow minded are they? oh well....i let them be and moved on.

i am proud of what i am now. and i am happy those i care, accpet and proud of me too.

i may not pass some people's idea of perfection, but i know i am perfect for me.

i am glad to report - I AM HAPPY.

so, 2010....i am ready to face whatever you toss my way!

Insya Allah...

ultimate andrenalin rush!

It was my first time...

I was excited and yet nervous...

I keep telling myself, this is strictly professional, its work...dont mix it with personal feelings. But i cant help it. It was too cool!

I attended my first drift event! It was superb!

I cannot even begin to describe the feeling i get when i saw how these skillfull drivers drift.

My company is one of the main sponsors for the drivers of Federation D. One of the drivers is No.1 in Malaysia and No.3 in South East Asia!! It also helps that he is cute! He is Tengku Djan. My boss, H, is also very much into cars and especially drift. He in fact is participating actively next year!

We have a booth in those two glorious days of drift events. So, to me it was hitting 2 birds with 1 stone - help my company and get to enjoy the event as well!

This is our booth. The car parked in front is my boss'. He will be using that car to compete next year.



Tengku Djan and me... this is after he won the Formula Drift Malaysia!



Me and the paddock girls. From left to right: Cindy, Me, Sofea and Esther. They are the hottest girls in the whole event! :P



Me, the paddock girls and the Federation D drivers. From left: Tan Tat Wei, Tengku Djan and Alvin Lau.


Me and my cute cool boss - H. I am blessed to be working for him. I hope to stay working with him for many many years to come!


What a great way to end my 2009! And i have a strong feeling that 2010 would give plenty of adventures!

Bring it on! :D

i dont care

i dont care...

...what people think of me - bitchy, fat, obnoxious, etc..
...whether people like me or not
...if people are talking bad stuff behind my back
...if people dont like how i do stuff
...if people dont like me smoking
...if people dont like me drinking
...if they dont like what i write in my blog
...if people dont like what i wear
...if people think im a looser
...if people think my friends are loosers
...if people think im not at their level
...if people dont like my hubby
...if people think im cold
...if people think im full of myself

i just D O N T C A R E!

its my life.

why should i care. in the past i cared too much on what other think of me, and i was miserable!!

but when i learn that i cant please everybody, fuck it! im gonna live my life, my way!

and i have been practising this mantra as my way of life for the past 6 years, and its been great!

im totally comfortable in my own skin.

i am happy.

and i am proud of myself - because others may not have 'found' themselves even until the day they die.

in fact i see others slowly begining to understand my lifestyle and have accepted me for what i am. and some even have implemented it in their life, and i see that they are much happier.

i pity those people that cares so much on what others think of them. the type of people that have this need to want to be popular all the time.

i know that im a bitch. at least i know it, am proud of it and am happy with it. and with this lifestyle, it has its benefits but it also has its, errmm...downside a bit. one of it is that i know im not the popular one. i use to worry and be unhappy that im unpopular, but now, i dont care.

if you dont like what i write in here, dont read it. no one is putting a gun to your head to read it. i never go to your blog or territory and tell you what to write and what not to write! its my god damn blog! i write what i want.

at least i have the gutts to say things that people only dare think and not say it out loud.

now i live my life by just being out right straight and not waste time. its much more efficient and consumes less energy.

trust me people, this is the best way to live your life. much better than being bound by what the society says is best.

screw 'em! its your life! so live it your way! life is too short for you to bow to others all the time.

theres only one that you bow to, and that is God.