How time flies!

I know.. I havent blogged for such a long time.

I was so busy with work that I didnt realise that its end of 2008 and a new year is approaching.

How time flies so fast!

I have so much to be thankful for this year. Even though there were quite a number of bumpy roads, but its nothing that I cant handle and comparatively to other years, the hell I went through...this year was a piece of cake.

I am thankful for:

1) Reduction from my pile of debts
2) Steady career with bright future
3) Good health
and last but not least...
4) My 'rock' & soul mate - still going strong and loving it!

I can foresee a bright future, (God willing!) and I wish nothing but success for everyone of my family and best friends!

Heaven AND Hell

HEAVEN

Im at a stage in my life, when all is well.

I have great career with strong possibilty of a very good financial stability. On top of that, working with great bosses with a great products and cause.

I can see the chain reaction and it looks good. Able to pay off old debts, take care of parents and of course myself. I am able to enjoy more things in life; food, clothes and etc.

I can even see a clear picture of us having a nice comfortable house and a nice car. I can foresee we get to travel together often and go shopping!

For that, I am extremely grateful. Alhamdulillah..


HELL

I see HIM less than a week in a month!

I miss his smiles: cheeky, horny, mischevious and most of all warm loving smile that makes you feel like you're the most beautiful woman on earth!

I miss the way he look at me, as if he can see straight to my soul.

I miss him singing to me romantic love songs

I miss him making stupid lame jokes just to cheer me up

I miss his voice - sexy, gruffy at times but most important - soothing.

I miss his touches

I miss his romantic gestures

I miss him hugging me till I fall asleep

I miss him wiping my tears away and comforting me when I am down

I miss him listening to my rantings

I miss listening to him excitedly telling me of his day

I miss debating with him

I miss his craziness and swearing

I miss us bitching and 'kutuk-ing' people

I miss playing with his warm soft fingers

I miss his unique, hipnotising scent

I miss him spoiling me

I miss touching him

I miss the feeling I get when his skin is against mine

I miss touching his face and gazing into his eyes that is so full of love for me

I miss him saying I am 'comel'

I miss his laughter

I miss sleeping with him beside me

I miss being woken up by him, with his soft voice, coaxing me

I miss how you make me feel complete - perfect

I miss my soul.

MISS YOU MY LOVE

Confessions and Pledges

"If I never feel you in my arms again,
if I never feel your tender kiss again,
if I never hear "I love you" now and then,
will I never make love to you once again?
Please understand, if love ends,
then I promise you, I promise you that,
that I shall never breathe again.
Breathe again, breathe again,
that I shall never breathe again.
And I can't stop thinking about,
about the way things used to be,
and I can't stop thinking about,
about the love that you made to me.
And I can't get you out of my head;
how in the world will I begin
to let you walk right out of my life
and throw my heart away?
And I can't stop caring about,
about the apple of my eye,
and I can't stop doing without,
without the center of my life.
And I can't get you out of my head,
and I know I can't pretend
that I won't die if you decide
you won't see me again.
And I can't stop thinking about,
about the way my life would be.
No, I can't stop thinking about,
how could you love me then leave?
And I can't get you out of my mind,
God knows how hard I've tried,
and if you walk right out my life,
God knows I'm sure to die.
And I can't stop doing without,
without the rhythm of my heart.
No, I can't stop doing without,
for I will surely fall apart.
And I can't get you out of my mind,
and I know I can't deny,
and I would die if you decide
you won't see me again"
(Toni Braxton - "Breathe again")


"I'm not your Superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
As a token of love from you to me.
I'll always be there for you
Through good and bad times
But I can't be that Superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my love, oh lasting love
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you've got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me, yeah
I need love
I need just your love"
(Karen White - "Superwoman")


"Share my life,
Take me for what I am.
'Cause I'll never change
All my colors for you.
Take my love,
I'll never ask for too much,
Just all that you are
And everything that you do.
I don't really need to look
Very much further/farther,
I don't wanna have to go
Where you don't follow.
I will hold it back again,
This passion inside.
Can't run from myself,
There's nowhere to hide.
(Your love I'll remember forever.)
Don't make me close one more door,
I don't wanna hurt anymore.
Stay in my arms if you dare,
Or must I imagine you there.
Don't walk away from me.
(No, don't walk awya from me. Don't you dare walk away from me.)
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you (you, you, you./If I don't have you, oh, oo.)
You see through,
Right to the heart of me.
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love.
I never knew
Love like I've known it with you.
Will a memory survive,
One I can hold on to?"
(Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing")


FOR YOU MY LOVE...
"A PEEK INTO MY SOUL"