Aloha Life!

As I light a cigarrete, I was thinking of what to write.

It has been so long and so many things happened; good and bad, work and personal.

Now, where do I start?

I am happy.

Truly happy.

Work: Busy!! But happy!
I am at my element at work. I love what I do and quite damn good at it. And on top of that, my work is recognized and appreciated. What more can I ask for? I can actually see myself excel in this line. I finally found what I am truly good at and love doing it! And trust me, thats very rare for me. Yey for me!

Personal: All is coming together, slowly but beautifully.
Rizal finally got a job that he loves and able to see himself in a career that he can specialise in. He is finally recognized for what he is. At last! And most importantly, he is happy. Its been awhile since I see that sparkle in his eyes. Well done, my love!

And on top of that, we are no longer just scraping by, month by month.

We finally get to do something that we both love but unable to do for a few years... Shopping!

We didnt go crazy, still in a tight budget but still, its great to finally have the money to buy the basics, what others take for granted, like pants and shirts. Almost every piece of clothing we have are so worn, I was a bit embarressed at my first day at work, but its ok. I just toughen up and move on.

Now, my wardrobe reflects my true taste and style.

It goes the same for Rizal. Bought him new shirts, pants and ties. After all, he is HOD now, he should look like one.

So, in short, things are going pretty well for me. Alhamdullilah.

I just wish Dad was here. He would be so proud of the two us. But in a way, I have this feeling that he knows whats happening and proud of us.

Alhamdullilah... May God bless and protect us, always.

Amin.

My Baby gone...

My heart dropped and broke into a gezillion pieces as soon as I realised my 'baby' has left me. There goes my usual hellos and nite nites, or me scolding it for being 'naughty'..

I'd never thought the pain would be this bad. I'd never thought my lil baby had that much of influence in my life, til its gone.

I miss seeing it playing around with its 'sibling'. Taunting it, teasing it.. till there's a mini flood on the floor! I miss screaming at them for causing me to get up from my comfortable position on the couch to go mop the floor.

But now I know you are in a better place. And thats the only thing thats comforting me now.

Your presence will definitely be missed, my beloved baby.

Thorn in my bed of roses...

Its been awhile since I blogged..

A lot happened and happened fast. Mostly good, especially, me finally nailing a good job. Things are finally looking great for me. I can finally breathe easily and smile as I foresee my future.

Just as I was about to enjoy this new outcome in my life, I was hit with a 'road block'.

My 'poison' has returned. I thought it was behind me. I thought I have finally rid of it. But unfortunately, I was mistaken.

I guess it is my fault as well, for not taking better care of myself. Well, I could not afford to in the past. But now I can. And I shall. I will not make this 'poison' effect my good life now.

In fact, I will identify it and kill it. I will overcome this. For I want a healthy and happy life.

Please God, I beg of you to hear my plea and help me. Give me strength to go through this. You are my last resort, where I can pour my heart out and The One that I know that can truly help me.

I am forever grateful for what You have given me. Alhamdulillah...